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I haven't been able to relax recently. And its actually surprising considering of all the work I've been doing to stay aware, relax, center myself, etc.

Despite that work, I'll admit, I have felt a bit of this creeping up recently. I spend a bunch of my free time planning for myself and Chain to go to tournaments, including Worlds; coordinating rides and hosting friends; moving between houses and babysitting Lily. Instead of three books by my bedside - which would indicate I'm actually spending a few minutes every now and then with them - I only have one. And I'm so recently into that one there's not even a bookmark in it yet.

Maybe I'm speaking too soon - I've been feeling a huge workload incline up to yesterday, when I cleared the final work hurdle before Thursday night's beginning of vacation. I knew the bottleneck up to yesterday would have me working so much to fit everything in -- just barely squeezing myself out the other end.

So I could give myself a few days to let the stress show itself the door. But I'm nervous I crossed a point of no return when it comes to relaxation versus constant motion/control. In summary, big trip coming up. Lots of effort behind me. I want to free up my nerves a bit. Relax.

Probably better that I didn't get the phone/web/email access for the trip I originally planned. Give me some time.